“Both my aunt and her husband died as a ‘son’…” – MISSING – VUSALA MAMMADOVA WRITES |
“When I opened my eyes, I always saw them waiting for my uncle at home. My grandparents passed away waiting for my uncle. I will never forget, my grandmother did not take her eyes off the door even in her last breath. The last word was “has my son come?” it happened…
Now my father is waiting for his brother, and I am waiting for my uncle. It would be a lie to say that we are looking for it. At that time, they walked along the front for almost months. And now we are sitting at home and waiting… Sometimes it seems to me that I learned to wait for my uncle from my family. Perhaps this habit will be passed on to my children…
When we were in school, we used to say this verse at events:
“There’s one village there is far away, he village it is our village…
Even if we don’t go or come, he is village it’s our village…”
Then I thought to myself that there is a brave man far away, that brave man is my uncle. Even if he doesn’t come or go… that brave man is my uncle…”
All this was told to me by one of the young people I met while I was working on the “Missing: Each of 4000” project. He did not want his name to be disclosed, he believes that saying “we are not looking, but waiting” about his uncle may hurt his father.
Another interviewee refused to talk at all: “My daughter, thank you very much for looking for me, but let me say in advance that I will not give an interview. My son is not dead to speak of. My son is alive and I wait for him every day. All Ganja he knows that I have been waiting for the day of his arrival for years.”
On September 19, 1992, Elmira Dadashova, the mother of Ilham, who went missing during the fighting on Farrukh Mountain, has been looking away from the door since the discovery of the mass grave in Farrukh, and focused on the results of DNA tests… Every time she called, “a news didn’t come out?” – he asks…
Within the framework of the project, we were able to provide information about only six missing people in the research published on the Pressklub.az website, but we collected only one book of waiting stories. I hope we will be able to introduce them to you in time. In this post, we’ve collected just a few of the comments and messages we’ve received since the first posts were published:
Yakut Seyid
I Karabakh In the war, seven of the sons from our village who volunteered to fight went missing. Late uncle Fidan did not close the courtyard door behind him at night until the day he passed away, so that my son would not be left on the street when he suddenly returned at night.
Aysel Jamal
Bibi’s son I Karabakh was lost in the battles of Agdara in the war. His news came in February 1992… Our school is named after him… Martyr status was given, but his late father did not receive the aid given to martyrs even once in his lifetime, saying “my son is alive!” Even today, my aunt is waiting for him, she always sees him in her dreams and says “my baby is alive!”
Mushfiq Gadirov
Vü of our villagesnow and has two casualties named Shahid. I Karabakh were lost in the war. Shahid’s mother is still waiting for him alive, she became even more hopeful after the victory… She doesn’t even accept the possibility that he is dead… I understand her, my grandfather’s father was also lost in World War II, and my grandfather was waiting for his death… And now I am just waiting… I know , it will come, someday there will be news…
Rabiya Zardabi
It is a heavy pain… I can’t take my eyes off the roads… Once the conversation of a mother whose son was held captive in Shuvalan made me cry for days… The mother said that she doesn’t like rain and thunder… There is a noise… Suddenly my son comes and knocks on the door, I am too old, I can’t hear… Even the sound of lightning doesn’t stop. I hear… I know, he will come, come to my sleep and say, “Mom, I’m alive!” Wait for me…
Gulnara Ismayilova
It’s a very serious pain, just today I talked to a mother… Her son is not at all news no, the old woman’s eyes are on the road, I didn’t have the heart to say that she didn’t know about the grave found in Edilli…
Shafaq Azer
In 1992, the brother of one of our classmates also went missing… Every day, teachers asked him in class what happened to his brother. news do you have Thus, our lessons were spent with true and false news from the front… His father said, “I will not shave my beard until my son comes out.” His father’s beard was so long that he looked like old Majnun… Majnun actually means mad in Arabic. My heart ached every time I saw him…
Humay Khalifagoulieva
My aunt’s son went missing in the First Garabagh War. My aunt’s heart exploded saying “son”… She couldn’t stand it… Her husband also died. Now from occupation free When I see the human bones unearthed from the excavations, I think that maybe my aunt’s son is there too…?
Tahmina Askerli
My aunt is still waiting for her son who went missing in 1992 in the village of Aşağı Abdürrahmanli of Fuzuli… She says, he will come…
Dear Safarova
Every time I read The Missing Project, I believe they are alive. Our lands free when it happened, it seemed to me that they were all there, waiting for us… I thought that along with the victory, this issue would also be resolved…
Nuran Ahmadzade
In the first Karabakh war, at our door martyr the coffin has arrived. Always missing way when I heard the waiting families talking, I was thankful that my uncle had a grave to visit. I can only ask for patience to the missing mothers…
Aytac Ali
When we were in school, my classmate’s father was missing in the war. He had hopes… His aunt said, maybe he is alive, he will come one day. Now, years later, when I read The Missing Project, I understand why that boy was always so sad. There is probably nothing more terrible than the disappearance of a native person…
Sanubar
I knew two families from the village of Yusifjanli in Agdam, and there has been no news about their disappearances. Currently, Garadagh region The coast they live in a dormitory in the settlement. They are waiting…
Jeyhun Majidov
In 1994, my brother Fuzuli disappeared in the direction. The status of martyrdom has been granted, but we are still waiting for the way. There is no questioning, no one saying “I saw”… It’s as if there has never been a person with this name in life…
Memorial Muharramli
For 30 years, our big family has been on the road… Two uncles went missing while defending their hometown Shusha. There is no institution that our family does not face, but it seems as if they have disappeared… We also grew up in these troubles as children… My grandmother kept her head up until the last day so that my sons would not come and see me bent… And my mother is still suffering from the pain of her two brothers… You know how hard it is…
My father’s sister, nephew, cousins… Exactly eight people are missing in Kalbajar. We have been walking for almost thirty years, we have informed international and local organizations. But there was never any result.
Asaf Sadigov
Our comrade-in-arms Feyzullayev Aydın Zakir oghlu is one of the 6 soldiers who went missing in the Patriotic War. On September 30 Fuzuli He joined the battle from the direction of Alkhanli district, and there is no news of him since that day. When he visited his family, his father, Uncle Zakir, used the following phrase: “When 3-5 manats fall out of his pocket and disappear, your eyes look for him, and I have lost my young son…”
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There are many of them. According to official information, 3890 people went missing in the first Karabakh war. We wish we could write about each one separately. In the words of their mothers, hoping that one day they will read these articles themselves…
To everyone involved in the project, especially Captured and we thank the State Commission on Missing and Hostaged Citizens!
Vusala Mammadova